Yesterday I came back from the Dialogue Process Training in the North Germany. Enriched by at least two important insights. The first is that presently the most important concepts in my life, namely NVC, Zen and Dialogue Process are not only coming beautifully together, but actually seem to be merely three different aspects of the very same direction or value of life, the one that I am passionate about. Being and coming together on the real and fundamental levels. So my life is gaining some focus again.
The second one happened after the topics of how to bring the Dialogue into the corporate environment surfaced in our conversations and I immediately felt, within me, a strong rejection to that notion. It was a similar inner response that I have felt when I was, last year, awarded as the business trainer of the year. Yes, of course I was happy to have received that award, but than after a couple of days it dawned on me that I have never really wanted to be a successful business trainer and that I was obviously on a wrong track.
I certainly do not want to die as a successful business trainer.
So what I have realized this time in Germany was that I do not want to be a great, best communication trainer, but I do want, eagerly, to communicate with people on the deepermost realms. I also do not want to create and “possess” the best method of personal growth and make the Dialogue very successful in the business world – yet I do want, passionately, to dialogue. I do not want to become a great NVC trainer, but I do want to communicate nonviolently with everybody and help other people in this regards. If my help is needed. I do not want to be a Zen meditation teacher. Yet I want to be fully present in my existence. So, I want to walk my talk and not talk my walk. I want to provide the space for the deep interactions to happen – this apparently is something that moves me whenever I encounter any variation or aspects of it.
And yes, this is what I have always wanted my life to be about and this is what I still want it to be about. Meaning, existential questions of life, true and total interactions, love and communion, being present and interact openly.
Yes, I want my life to be about giving, not about getting.
But one still has to earn his living, so it’s not enough to just be, you have to act, and teaching things you sincerely believe in can’t be so bad, unless you have an alternative of course
Comment by Aja — May 25, 2008 @ 7:50 pm
Absolutely! To me being does not mean sitting and not moving, of course, it certainly involves a lot of acting. However, it seems that the place one is coming from, and the energy or motivation behind it all, is the thing that poses the crucial difference. Am I doing things in order to become … and to get … at the end or am I doing what is the most natural and meaningful thing for me to do simply because this is the most meaningful thing for me to do. And I, along the way, earn a living.
Thanks for pointing this out.
Comment by Robert — May 25, 2008 @ 8:39 pm